New Year

Today I woke up exhausted and very emotional. I got the keys to my new apartment. When I stepped in it I just wanted to cry. I felt happy that I loved my new apartment and how lucky I was. I was also sad because Dave is not physically here with me to see my happy smile. Today was the first day I also got a little Alaska(home)sick. No Ellen to call and go shopping with me to get all the things I need for my new place. I wish Bobby was here so I can show him my new digs. I am emotional about him too.

I also am a little sad that I won't be spending New Years with my husband. Its not really a holiday we celebrate but this year seems to really mean a little more to us.

Goodbye to 2009 and Helloooooo to 2010 I already know it is going to be a great year.

Raleigh here I am :)

After a very long flight I am finally in Raleigh. When I went to get my car rental the guy asked me if I had a return flight and I said no and I went to find my hotel. Then I got to my hotel and realized that I was not going back home after this business trip. I thought to myself "What the hell did I do"? "Am I crazy"? "I am 43 years old I have a great home in Alaska and a great husband and son"?, "I must be crazy"? "All this so I can be warm and be able to shop at a real mall"?. After some deep breathing and a good night sleep I pulled myself together. I can do this, I am a 43 years old and I am not 23 and I do have a great husband and great son that totally support me and a great job. I can make a home anywhere.

So I am off this week looking for a new home and a new car but I think on my way I will stop and get some paper bags just in case I need to breathe some more.

On My Way

Yesterday I left my husband and son at the airport to leave on our next stage of life. It was a bit harder than I thought and we were all a bit emotional. I swear I even saw my eighteen year old son tear up a bit. That is my story and I am totally sticking to it :) It was hard to leave my house that I worked so hard on making a home. A home I never had when I was growing up. It was hard to leave my dogs, my bed, my kitchen and my way of life that I have lived for the last 10 years. Then I remember this is Dave and mine next adventure and we are ready. It will be Bobby's adventure too but I needed to cut the cord and let him make the right decisions. Again not knowing if I gave him all the right tools to make good choices since my mother, well lets say she did the best she could with the demons she had to fight. I pray every day that I am the best wife and the best mother I can be on that day and hopefully that will be enough.

Tomorrow I am off to Raleigh and I am so excited. I really will miss Dave and Bobby but it will be good to find Cathy again. The woman who is not Bobby's mom and Dave's wife although these titles will never go away it will be nice to find Cathy.

I remember that one of my favorite scenes from My Best Friends Wedding is when Julie Roberts cooks different egg dishes to find out what her favorite egg dish is and not that of someone else. I can't wait to find my favorite egg dish.


Raleigh watch out here comes Cathy!!!

Merry Christmas

We are so blessed with such wonderful friends and family on this day.

We made a toast this morning celebrating our last Christmas in this house and to celebrating future Christmas's in our future houses.

I leave tomorrow at 7:00 a.m. to start the beginning of our adventure. My first stop Seattle for a little BFF time with Erin.

Today is for Dave and Bobby we will hang together and celebrate my last day before I leave. They are sad but I truly believe this is such a good thing to have Bobby and Dave do some man bonding. It does scare me that I won't be around to supervise LOL!!

Merry Christmas to everyone!!

Merry Christmas Eve

It Christmas Eve today. This is one of my favorite holidays,the other one is St Patrick's Day. Christmas Eve is one of my favorites because Dave and I have good memories being Santa and of course that is when Santa comes. When I was a little girl I totally believed in Santa and was crushed when I found out it was my mom.

Today I have some baking to do and some cooking. Bobby's Grandma is coming over and we will open our one gift and spend our last Christmas Eve in this house. That makes me sad but next year it is good to know that we will be with family on the East. That will be a little different for us since our Christmas is usually pretty peaceful and uneventful. Next year will be interesting :)

I leave in two days. Dave has been so wonderful trying to get our car sold. We put it on Craig's List and we have gotten three call in three days. Not bad!!

Have a Wonderful Christmas Eve I hope that Santa brings you everything you wanted.

Cathy and Daves New Adventure

I am sure you are wondering why I started this blog. Well I am wondering the same thing. All I do know is I wanted some kind of path to look back on and see all the things that Dave and I achieved in our next stage of life. We are so excited to start our next stage in North Carolina. I will begin our adventure this week. I said goodbye to my stores yesterday and today and that was harder then I thought. So many wonderful and talented people who help shape me into the person and leader I am today.
Today I am packing and getting ready to leave on Saturday. I wish Dave could come with me now but he will join me in the summer.

Stay tuned for our future adventures on our new blog.

Happy Holidays!!!